stinging thursday. my day can't get any better. school was okay. we did some preparation for tomorrow's test. few revisions were given and other than that, we talked among ourselves. pretty much slacky. eventually there is some misunderstanding going on. things got abit messed up. seriously guys im sorry. blog is where i could share my feelings and whats been bothering me lately too. i don't mean anything uh. plus, i don't know this blog has alreadt reach the level of popularity. another addition of fuccked up issue just had to blend in at the very wrong time. before i go into details, yesterday's match was okay. they played quite well this time and they missed alot of chances. poland won which is double yayness and the score was satisfying though. s'pore scored one. good game guys. decided not to go for their last match today. thought i could stay away from danger, but then things ended up the same. chaos. i hate it. the truth is i didn't really enjoy myself supporting the match ysterday. yes natazsha you could simply read from the expression of my face. infact, i love you for that. you know me really well. i get so tensed up and i don't know why i was feeling different, specifically in sense of jealousy. the moment i saw him walking into the pitch with his friends. with somebody, someone, that is already a thing to him. i know. i know its totally over between us. i guess its just me. i can't just easily see him move on in a blink of an eye. the fact that i miss him, it makes me want to hate him even more. everyfuckingthing was okay at first. today marks the 11 of june. and the number 11 reminds me of you. i don't love you now and i don't hate you too. i just want to know what are the reasons for the painful treatment i used to get. i know you're reading this. i pray, i wish, i hope and i believe you will positively change being the nice guy that you always claim you are. you are nice, you are just confuse. i wish you all the best. and if you think they mentioned bad things about you, you're wrong. i was the one who desperately wanted to know what was it all about. i swear, they didn't mention those bad words about you. they are your friends. i shouldn't be the one who cut across the line. im sorry.

i wasn't really in my best mood today. not until those 3 boys gave me a surprise visit at night. thanks ash, alfee and asrezal. you guys came at the right time. its been ages since wr hanged out at my place. the companion was great. i wasn't really thinking about the matter with them around. so many changes. till then. Posted by Anonymous@10:38 PM
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