i realise that you actually have to take months or even years to built up trust but once you betrayed it, its gone. within seconds. just like that. things that i've always fear the most is not getting what i want, changes and people leaving. i've always want what i want, i cried, threw tantrums, roll over the floor just to get what i want when i was little. though i don't roll over the floor anymore, but sometimes cry and threw tantrums now and then, most of the time. i still get what i want. may it be from someone, or may it be from myself. i've always want things to go my way. my point is, what if i started planning for tomorrow and then it doesnt work out. and i have no control over it? what if i plan what's to happen in a year but the same person isn't there anymore. still no control over it? understand? i used to believe that everything will always go my way but now, i don't think so. it's time i face up to reality and give way to people. it's time i give in. i have to let go of my wilfulness. get rid of all the bad system in me and start anew. yes, start anew. nothing will always be the same. as time passes, thing changes, life changes and people change. Posted by hippoelly@12:20 PM
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