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Monday, May 18, 2009

i got hook on oh soo jung ys karl - a korean drama. karl caught my attention when i was changing the channels on tv. it was a 2-hours series shown every sunday. the storyline get me so enthusiastic that i impatiently can't wait for the next episode to come. so yours truly decided to catch the episodes online instead. heh heh heh. i left with only 5 ep out of 16. karl is stunningly gorgeous eventhough he look abit old to me only from a certain view but overall hes yummy. haha. the drama is just like another typical korean love story actually. but just to kill my boredom and to occupy my free time, i decided to finish up the whole of this episodes and maybe search for more korean dramas after. hoho. korean drama enthusiast huh since im fucking jobless. i don't feel sleepy at all but my dark rings are getting darker. well.

lazy sunday. did abit of the house chores, siblings bonding session, watched few episodes of oh soo jung vs karl and, oh, we did dropped by hougang mall for a little window shopping after we fetched bro-in-law from work. lol. i actually have no idea what we were doing in hg mall of all places. grrr. but guess what i bumped into my ex-eyecandy in secondary school. i don't know why i get soo happy besides this wasn't the first time i bump into him anyways. haha. its already 2.50am. why am i not asleeeep yet. i miss attending school somehow. weird but atleast theres something to look forward for each and everyday rather than staying at home most of the time suffocating from not being able to inhale the fresh air outside. boring seh hidop macam gini.

i did some flashbacks while i was walking home all by myself yesterday. in life, i think i've made a huge mistake. i didn't know things may turn out from bad to worst. in life, i believe we have to go through by moderate pace of steps. but i guess i missed out all that. know the facts before jumping to conclusion. thats the way to settle things down isnt it? but what i did was otherwise. how silly can i be to surrender everything i used to have, the precious time i used to spend, the happy moments that i used to share, but everything had turned dusty now and its already part of yesterday. but its something, something that i won't forget to remember every minute every second every hour of my life even when if i'm not here anymore. i thought i was trapped in the most terrifying dreams ever. the one where you have to run, run till your lungs burst. but as for mine, the most terrifying part was losing the people i love so much eversince i was given as a gift to my family from allah. i could see and feel the changes i've made eversince i was a newborn baby. dad and mum raised me up being what i am today. i can't tell whether its bad or good. i will just leave to the others on that. sigh. my family.. they entirely matter alot to me. i wonder what will i be doing now if it wasn't because of them. i love you pa, i love you ma, i love you kak ida & abg saiful and i love the both of you, kak liza and kak shasha. i'm not being too emotional here but everyone go through emotional ups and downs isn't it?

friends.. we can't entirely depend on them. bad influencing or be it good, either way it depends on what kind of friends we mix around with. but the important part is to be able to control yourself and know whats wrong and whats right. to me, i don't need friends to be by my side all the time when i have my family members supporting me all this while. not forgetting, nur natazsha and mohd asrezal. they are the culprits who bring happiness in my life. we see each other grow, we know each other extremely well and we could basically read each other's mind. they know me pretty well. well enough that they know what i've been going through for almost half of 17 years. they are my two favourites. they are just like my bestestfriends. with them around, i'm not afraid to lose my true friends i have today.

being rebel is not the way to solve your problems abang r. be who you are. i know you as a strong guy, who never gives up easily. you're not doing the right thing by showing others your weaknesses. seriously rebellious is not cool. i love you and i miss you. meet up soon alright.