so, i have to start blogging all over again. i was about to publish my entry when my handphone is literally being such a sibye. ahh fuck and i can't recall everything that i've type.

as i was saying, the month of april is full of surprises where things happened unexpectedly. be it good or bad but i prefer bad cause thats what been happening to me, myself and i. quite a few approached me today and start engaging their problems to me. there isn't anything much for me to say because my situation a bit does not make any difference to theirs. so in the end, we start to double up. okay call me typical but seriously im feeling ultimately shitty right now. maybe i'm expecting too much. im trying not to fall into the same trap all over again but with the situation im in now obviously you can tell that i failed to do so. nothing new isn't it? thanks uh. so i still don't understand what you want and i don't know know whats your intention. if you ever realise, it's entirely about her and her, once again, that lead us to disagreement between each other. i promise i won't regret about what i've said to you earlier. i don't know what to do. i still think you have not made up your mind. you are just being too decisive. you are still confuse. think over wisely before moving on with your life cause i am still waiting ok. fuck i'm not desperate or psycho whatever you called it. im curious. maybe im desperate. desperate for real answers so i could stop thinking about it from day to night. non-stop hits gtu lor.

it feels much better after pouring out everything with the close ones. as much as i wanted to, i can't get away from them cause they've been with me for over 17 years and trust me they know me really well. alot more than my bff. err, i don't have one anyway but okay thats pretty much obvious cause they are my sister fuck. i wonder, who do i even have now other than my family members and cousins? alhamdullilah i still can depend on them and i promise you things will get whole lot better with them around. i love them cause they love me too. yes so much for wanting to keep it from them. i can't anyway. what to do. living in one roof, you can't simply runaway am i not righttt. eventhough my problems is somehow somewhat they call it childish, because yes they had experienced more than me, i don't mind sharing the littlest thing about what i've been going through and 48296046 of advises start coming in within a flash. macam cool kan? okay no. infact, their words of remark can be really drastic at times which sometimes make me think that they becoming like a mutant that couldn't care less and don't give a single damn about how others may feel. screw them especially twisterella. haha. everybody in the house used to it anyway.

o m g, very long updates today. it feels like i own this blog anyway. hurhur. school was okay. some explaination were given during networking lesson before we can carry out our practical which will be held next monday. we will be making some cable shit but it sounds quite fun. so much for wanting to skip ESJ but in the end the class was cancelled. heh heh heh. test on mondaaaay like super fast gtu lor. we didn't even study during PCS lesson cause what we usually did was doing some online studies. no explaination at all. it last for freaking 4 hours. yes. the cute guy next door never fail to make my day even better. heh heh heh. too bad there isn't PCS lesson today but i did bumped into him at the interchange. fate tak? haha. gatal.
its alr 12am and i've yet to sleep. class starts late tomorrow which mean i going to reach home late too. i daydream in class today. i enjoy stoning. after school a random meet up with natazsha and fatin at compass point. caught things up and they went off to bishan as fatin would like to make a registration for night classes. budak budak retake o's. i'm always at the losing point lately. itu takpe, confident pulak tu bebual but in the end sala. haha. im starting to miss my secondary school friends. its really windy outside. till then, much love. Posted by Anonymous@11:20 PM
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